Scared....shitless!

This afternoon I made an appointment , one i've dreaded for quite some time but needed to make years ago...

Growing up we couldn't afford to go to the dentist....so we just didn't go....my whole family Grandparents, Aunts and Uncles etc....all have dentures, partials etc.... not many had good teeth...including myself

When I was about 5 or 6 years old my Aunt Judy kept me alot while mom worked...and that day my Uncle Jeff was there as well....thats what I can remember of the day.... Judy called for me to come into the living room....I came running up behind her and she didn't see me and her elbow as she turned around knocked my 2 front teeth out, well actually broke them off at the gumline.... she was horrified...I think she and my uncle Jeff were scared....I really don't remember me throwing much of a fit....I would have to ask my Uncle Jeff....but I think I was in too much shock to do much of anything.... I just remember Judy freaking out and I believe they called mom at work.... anyways I survived....lol

That is the one and only time I have been to a dentist in my life

I'm sure you have noticed that in alot of my pictures I don't smile....I hate my teeth....I hate my smile....it's embarrassing to say the least... and for once in my life I want a pretty smile, one to be proud of.... I want to be able to smile as often as I want to and laugh without being cautious , trying to hide my teeth...

In the sunday paper there was a coupon for a free exam and xrays....but it expires on June 15th.... I thought about it a couple days....scared to actually make that call and set up an appointment....wanted to chicken out 1,000 times....

I did it.....I made the call....I go next Wed. the 10th for my exam and xrays.... I plan on getting dentures....not sure if I want to get a couple of extractions at a time or if I want to just get it all over with at once like Mom did.... honestly although I know after the pain pills wear off it will be painful....I think getting them all pulled at once is the way to go.... some may have to be cut out...I will find out more once they do the xrays....

More visits = more $

I do have dental insurance....thank the Lord...so that will help alot....I'm hoping they will work with me and set up a payment plan....we shall see....

So please send good thoughts, vibes, prayers my way...that everything goes okay and that there isn't much pain....I'm scared to death and I don't tolerate pain well, I'm not ashamed to say I am a big ol' baby....LOL

So you know for at least a month or two there will be no pics of me on here whatsoever....not gonna be posting any toothless pics... no sir ri' bob! hahaha

If I can get support from anywhere I know I can find it here where all my friends hang out :) Thanks bunches!